The Bitterness Of Mortality Is Mine 2 Endure. . .

I Choose A Mortal Life For You, Estel . . . . For Now . . . And For Eternity . . .

Friday, October 28, 2005

Zack Sent Me This E-Mail:

Most people want success NOW! Or at least they want to achieve their goals and enjoy the fruits of victory as soon as possible. Wiser heads, however, understand that sometimes change takes time.

We live in an "instant" culture. Life moves quickly and everyone wants instant relief and immediate gratification. We want to get ahead, make money, make the sale, lose the weight, or take next year's vacation as soon as possible. I sometimes think we move so fast that eventually we may even get ahead of ourselves!

This week I talked with a potential client who fears life has passed him by. He would like to open a business, make some "major money and retire while I can still enjoy it." He sees younger people passing him by and he wants a coach because he "can't wait another year or two." He wants financial success and he wants it "now." The man is 26 years old.

That call left me sad and even a bit confused. At more than twice his age, I wondered if there was any future for me at all!

Now, before we go too far down this path, let me affirm that rapid success is a good thing. In fact, I'm all for it! If you have a chance to make major advances, I suggest you do so! Seize opportunity whenever you can! When there are legal, ethical and legitimate ways to take giant steps forward, you should go for it. Like "Duh!"

But in her wisdom, I think Mother Nature has something to say about the more ordinary path to success. Healthy, organic change usually happens slowly.

When plants or animals are taken out of their traditional environment, most of the time they don't do well. Rapid changes in climate, diet, or other environmental factors are usually harmful. Our veterinarian even recommends that we be careful about changing Cody's diet from one brand of dog food to another so as not to upset his system. (This for a dog that eats anything!)

Even kids who have dreamed of college can suffer home sickness. People who have saved for years and eagerly anticipated a visit to another culture can still be disoriented by language or customs they didn't expect. We know that people who "win the lottery" often experience a myriad of problems adjusting to their new situation.

Rapid success is not always a good thing.

That's no reason to slow down! It is, however, a reason to persist, to be wise, and to "keep on keeping on" if your success is arriving slower than you would like.

It's a complicated thing. On the one hand, we want to be quick and efficient. I love being a coach precisely because it DOES bring success more quickly and more easily. At the same time, too often we become impatient and easily discouraged. Sometimes, I suspect nature and life are teaching us vital lessons while we impatiently climbing the ladder of success.

We all know that "over-night success" often takes 20 years or longer. I encourage you to move forward as quickly as you can, but also to accept that whatever is happening is apparently the way it should be, at least for the moment. If you can safely and legitimately speed up the process, go for it! Learn new skills, get a coach, form a team, "make it happen." But. "Patience is a virtue" and few of us have mastered it. Sometimes "over-night success" takes time and life can teach us important lessons along the way.

Persist. Work hard. Be patient. Never, never give up! Look for a better, faster way, but in the meantime, trust that life is unfolding as it should and that in time, you will get there. "Inch by inch, anything's a cinch."

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Words and Music By
Lynn Ahrens and Stephen Flaherty

Anya:
Dancing bears
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory

Royal Ghost Voices:
Aahh...

Anya:
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory
Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart
Used to know
Things it yearns to remember
And a song
Someone sings
Once upon a December


Original score and song adaptations composed, Conducted and Produced by Dave Newman Contains a portion of "Once Upon December" Angela Lansbury (Marie) and Lacey Chabert (Young Anastasia) Lyrics by Lynn Ahrens / Music by Stephen Flaherty. © 1997 Fox Film Music Corporation (BMI)/ © 1996, 1997 T C F Music Publishing, Inc. (ASCAP). (p) 1997 Twentieth Century Fox Film Corporation.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Finally New Ones!
Finally ToykoPop get with the Author, she stated that she gonna release #4 eventually, straight as a Manga. #4 will also be the conclusion to the storyline and the English one will be released as soon as they publish the Japanese one which is still in the work.

Can't wait for #4! -__^

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Some Favourite Songs Lyrics

1. Once Upon A December (Anastasia)
Words and Music By Lynn Ahrens and Stephen Flaherty

Anya:
Dancing bears
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory

Royal Ghost Voices:
Aahh...

Anya:
Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance through a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory
Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember
Things my heart
Used to know
Things it yearns to remember
And a song
Someone sings
Once upon a December

Original score and song adaptations composed, Conducted and Produced by Dave Newman Contains a portion of "Once Upon December" Angela Lansbury (Marie) and Lacey Chabert (Young Anastasia) Lyrics by Lynn Ahrens / Music by Stephen Flaherty. © 1997 Fox Film Music Corporation (BMI)/ © 1996, 1997 T C F Music Publishing, Inc. (ASCAP). (p) 1997 Twentieth Century Fox Film Corporation.


2. Cahaya Aidil Fitri
Black Dog Bone

Bila tiba Hari Raya
Semua insan bergembira
Tetapi bagiku hanya kesedihan
Yang menyelubungi hidup

Ayah dan juga ibuku
Telah pergi selamanya
Terbiarlah aku ibarat musafir
Yang haus di padang pasir

KORUS
Siapakah yang sudi
Menghulurkan simpati
Kepada nasibku ini
Agar dapat kurasa
Nikmat di hari raya
Seperti insan yang lain

Ku meminta dan berdoa
Kepada Yang Maha Esa
Tabahkan hati berilah pedoman
Cahaya Di Aidil Fitri

KORUS


3. Summer Rain
Belande Carlisle

Whispering our goodbyes
Waiting for the train
I was dancing with my baby
In the summer rain
I can hear him saying:
"nothing will change,
Come dance with me baby
In the summer rain"

I remember the rain on his skin
And his kisses hotter than the san an winds
Whispering our goodbyes
Waiting for the train
I was dancing with my baby
In the summer rain
I remember laughing till we almost cried
There at the station that night
I remember looking in his eyes

CHORUS
Oh my love its you that i dream of
Oh my love, since that day
Somewhere in my heart i'm always
Dancing with you in the summer rain
Doesnt matter what i do now
Doesnt matter what i say
Somewhere in my heart i'm always
Dancing with you in the summer rain
Ooooh summer

I can hear the whistle
Departing the train
I was dancing with my baby
In the summer rain
I can hear him saying,
"ooh love is strange,
Come dance with me baby,
In the summer rain"
I remember the rain pouring down
And we poured our hearts out as the train pulled out

I can see my baby waving from the train
It was the last time that i saw him
In the summer rain

CHORUS

Every time i see the lightning
Every time i hear the thunder
Every time i close the window
When this happens in the summer
Oh the night is so inviting
I can feel that you are so close
I can feel you when the wind blows,
Blows right through my heart

Oh my love its you that i dream of
Oh my love, since that day
Somewhere in my heart i'm always
Dancing with you in the summer rain
Every night and everyday now
Though i know you've gone away
Somewhere in my heart i'm always
Dancing with you in the summer rain


4. Runaway Train
Soul Asylum

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

CHORUS
Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

CHORUS

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same


5. Fixing A Broken Heart
Indecent Obsession

There was nothing to say the day she left
I just filled the suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in the rain
Looking for someplace to ease the pain
Oh, then like an answered prayer
I turned a round and found you there

CHORUS
You really know how to start fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams had fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

And now i dont understand what i'm going through
It must be a plan that lead me to you
Because the hurts just disappears in every moment that you are near
Yeh, just like an answered prayer
You make the loneliness easy to bear

CHORUS

Soon the rain will stop falling baby
And i'll forget the past cos here we are at last

CHORUS


More will come or I can just put them all into a proper webpage. -__^

Monday, October 17, 2005

Bored So Here Some Quizes Again...

A black & white pic of Aragorn
Your date is Aragorn. He is caring, loving, and
considerate. He will also put his life on the
line for your well-being. Plus, he is the
future king! That would mean you'd be the
Queen! He may not be that fast in the romance
department, but, hey, he's been living in the
wild away from civilization for a bit. Give him
time to get to know you, and reap the benifits
of patience, you lucky girl!


Who is you Dream Lord of the Rings Date? With nice pictures for all you girls!
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But I'm suppose to date Erestor....or Witchking or Ringwraith No. 2 o__O

Haldir
You are Haldir!


Which Lord of the Rings Elf Are You?
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Heehee....always with Haldir I am since his Sister is still stuck at the Eastern Borders.

you are...
°íÌ(0x8bb2130)


Which shipper couple are you?
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Level 4 Elf Knower
Congratulations! You are a level 4 Elf Knower. You
know practically everything there is to know
about these immortal creatures. Keep on
rocking.


How well do you know the Elves?
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Strider
Aragorn, son of Arathorn. The one true king of
Gondor, but don't tell Denethor...


Who, in the world of tLotR, are you?
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Let me guess, no Haldir? @__@

Ah, Moody Aragorn.
Moody Aragorn


What Lord of the Rings Male and Mood Do You Desire?
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Friday, October 14, 2005

I Am Officially Bankrupt.....Sort Of....

Finally, after 6 years of deciding to get for myself a Star Wars Armor and 4 years finally deciding to go for a Scout Trooper Armor, I finally placed my order and pay for my Biker Scout Armor from Kropserkel. Cost me USD713.32 with the payment breakdown as follow:

$350 US ST Body Armour Kit
$180 US ST ABS Rough Cut Helmet Kit
$ 85 US
ST Blaster Stunt
$ 65 US Shipping to Singapore by Expedited service
---------
$680 US Product and Shipping Total
$ 33.32 US PayPal
service charges on this amount
---------
$713.32 US Total
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Was suppose to do it early Sept so I can get the Armor by now and got time to ask Shawn to help me put it together but I delay and delay and other stuffs need my money first till yesterday. =__= 6 Years of Whinning and Daydreaming from Stormtrooper Armor to finally Biker Scout finally done in 10 minutes on a Fri Night during the month of Ramaddan. =__=

So next on the menu for Online Order will be:
1. German Elven Ears plus other stuffs (EUR56.50 + EUR14.50)
2. Trinty Matrix Reloaded/Revolution and The Matrix Shades
3. Elven Banner and Gondor "Old Tree" Pennet
4. Black Parasol
5. DVDs from Amazon or somewhere else for Bram Stoker Dracule, Elizabeth, The Worst Witch, Robin Hood Men In Tights, Spaceballs, The Cave of the Golden Rose etc etc
6. Harry Potter Patches from Patch Palace

Will see when I got the money to get them with the Harry Potter Patches and German Ears take main priority.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Kapur this from Maggie and Ferd:

1. Name someone with the same birthday as you.
Sean Austin

2. Where was your first kiss?
With a guy or family or friend?
Guy not yet while family too young to remember. -__^

3. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
Not yet.

4. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
Yes I guess in Primary 2 (Grade 2). He was misbehaving so I grabbed him, hit him and threw him over the table. ^__^

5. Have you ever sung in front of a large number of people?
Errr.....I think so back in school?

6. What's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?
Look and way of dressing. I prefer someone who look good and dress normally.

7. What really turns you on?
Things I love like Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, Clefairies

8. What do you order at Starbucks?
For myself, used to be Mocha Frappacino but nowadays going for Green Tea Frappacino. My brother always make me get him Caramel Frappacino.

9. What is your biggest mistake?
Didn't study hard enough for major exams like PSLE, GCE 'O' Level etc etc

10. Ever hurt yourself on purpose?
Kinda not seen on the surface. Do it here and there when depressed, the urge come etc etc. Am trying not to do it any more.

11. Say something totally random about you.
I live to rock the world! ^__^

12. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Not yet.

13. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
Yub, yub. Cartoons mostly. I also started a liking for "The Worst Witch" TV Series but Kids Central had stopped showing it. Feel like even doing the girls school uniform. :P

14. Did you have braces?
Nope tho' I feel I need one for my teeth. -__^

15. Are you comfortable with your height?
Nope. >__< I wish I am 1.85m tall aka about 6' 2" instead of this pathatic 1.52m aka 5' 1" tall

16. What is the most romantic thing someone of the preferred sex has done for you?
I once tried to have a Steady and he gave me a Diamond Ring for Valentine's Day.

17. When do you know it's love?
When I feel all warm instead and my instincts tell me he's TheOne.

18. Do you speak any other languages?
Other than English and Malay, I know phrases or words of Mandarin, Hokkien, Japanese, Tamil....whatever is needed for Singlish.

19. Have you ever been to a tanning salon?
Nope and I wish I am a LOT fairer till almost Caucasian Pale; like Nicole Kidman or something. -__^

20. What magazines do you read?
Star Wars Insider, Cosmode (Cosplay Mook), Marie Claire here and there

21. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
Not yet. I only seen a short one in Singapore guess guess the usual one is not even available here in Singapore.

22. Has anyone you were really close with passed away?
I wish I can say my Grandfather from my late Mom side but I was too young that time.

23. Do you watch MTV?
Nope.

24. What's something that really annoys you?
Ah Bengs, Mats and all other kind of punks.

25. What's something you really like?
Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, My kids & Pets

26. Do you like Michael Jackson?
Not anymore since he behaved like a Moron in the mid-90s.

27. Can you dance?
A bit I guess

28. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?
I didn't sleep for almost 48h before sewing costumes

29. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
Nope. I wish I really live a long, long healthy and youthful life as was predicted by the Palm reader.....okay they only say about the Long Life part

30. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
I haven't even stay in the Hospital before tho' work there before as part of my Biotechnology Diploma Holiday Attachment

31. Do you actually read these when other people fill them out?
For my friends only. -__^

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Too Lazy To Ramble So Here Some Quizes:


YOU ARE CATNIP


What herb are you?
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You Are A: Duck!

duckFound in many lakes and ponds, ducks are a common site the world over. Known for their famous quack, ducks tend to congregate in flocks or go off on their own in pairs. As a duck, you may seem friendly at times but will not hesitate to bite if someone is bothering you. Your love for travel and preference for being in crowds are some reasons why you are a duck.

You were almost a: Puppy or a Kitten
You are least like a: Groundhog or a ChipmunkCute Animals Quiz




You are the drawing.


Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
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You're in Slytherin!
You're in Slytherin!


Harry Potter:: Which House Calls You? - with pictures! (for girls)
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I really seems to be on PMS, both Pre and Post lately ever since WCG. =__= Pissed off with some people (David, Ris....) and not happy with others (Reno...) no matter how much sucking they trying to do to me. Depression again?

Then again, watching a segment of Oprah, I think it's just with the lack of progress lately in my life and costumes, I'm just having a bout of Low Self-Esteam lately. Must get off my butt and get things done!

Ps: Fasting Month starting on Wed. And my Hari Raya Outfit still as cloths and can't send it in yet as I still haven't wash the Silk Duponi since it stink of Incenses anyway. o__O